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It’s a bit funny if I sit and think about it. I have absolutely nothing to blog about, thus my reason for not posting for the past couple of weeks. 1 Yet the power is out 2 and my first two thoughts are to write and read. I have already finished one book and started another…but I’m not too interested in reading them too fast since I don’t have the entire series and it’s too cold to walk to the library. Plus, I’m probably one of the few bookworms who doesn’t own an eReader (not counting those who are against them). Honestly, I need to get one (an eReader) which is yet another thing to add to my TSIG list.
At the time I originally drafted this post, I had to go get my allergy shots but currently? I have an appointment with my neurologist on Wednesday, which I’m completely fine with as I’ve already met her and I’m getting a ride from a company that I know and trust. I don’t really have any news or updates regarding my appointments about my MS, as I’m still learning about dealing with it, and how it effects my daily life.
On a somewhat less depressing note, I have been trying to become more interested once again in working on my novel. I come up with plans, but then something interferes – my health, the weather, the power going out. Though if I’m to be completely honest, the only thing keeping me from writing is myself, and a complete lack of motivation…also a tad bit of fear. What if my novel isn’t very good? What if people have been lying to me when they said I was a good writer? What does that even mean, to be a good writer? Wouldn’t that be different depending on the person and the situation? Forgive me, it seems I’m having a bit of an existential crisis which would be great if I actually had any idea on how to answer the questions it brings up. Or if I had the energy – both mentally and emotionally to deal with whatever arises from answering them.
Normally by this point I’d have gone into why I chose the title, and some of the meaning behind it. This time, however, I wasn’t really inspired by much of anything lately…blame it on the season or my looming anxiety about an appointment at the end of the month. Regardless of the cause I need to figure out a way to increase both my inspiration and general interest in most everything. But where to begin?
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